Our sweet girl is one month old today and I'm sitting here after a night that was long and trying just thanking God for our little angel baby. Although, it's tough and definitely testing my patience, I wouldn't trade this life for the world.

Currently, she's weighing just about 8 pounds gaining from a mighty 5lbs 13oz she was when leaving the hospital so we're so pleased by this progress! She's napping more consistently throughout the day and usually going down for bed around 8pm. Doing this, she's waking up twice throughout the night, once at midnight and around 3am again to eat and then we're up for the day about 6:30am when daddy leaves for work. We're working hard on getting her used to a little routine for bedtime and then also implementing some Baby Wise techniques. I say this lightly because we're definitely doing baby led feeding because she's been growing so much and seems hungry much faster than 3-4 hours so we're on average eating 3-4oz about every 2.5-3 hours throughout the day.

Last time I mentioned updates, my milk supply was excessively low and had me down and I've been trying so many alternatives to boost that but it's been with no such luck. I was using Fenugreek, Fennel Oil, drinking tons of water, eating oatmeal, drinking Gatorade, pumping every 1.5-2 hours and then also doing skin to skin time but alas.... nothing. I was then prescribed Reglan but after being on it a couple days it had me feeling really down and uncomfortable so I've since then stopped. All that being said, I am pumping every 3 hours during the day and mixing my milk with formula and at night I'm nursing until Emery can't get anymore and following it with a small bottle. At this point, my main concern is getting her what she needs and if that means it's not from me, that's okay. Every body and person is different and I'm just not producing what she demands so I'd be content with drying up.

We've been letting her sleep pretty loosely around the house where she is happy but since trying to get her sleeping a touch longer during the nights, I've attempted to have her nap in her crib during the day and then sleep in her bassinet at night next to me in our room. I confess, half the time she ends up tummy sleeping on my chest for naps - which helps me rest during the day! - and at night, she some times co-sleeps because she sure loves being by mama and I'm okay with this. I know these days will be long missed when she is all independent so I'm soaking in those moments as much as possible where she wants to be close and warm and secure.... cue the tears!

I find myself throughout the day in the trials and triumphs, constantly praying to God for patience, strength, wisdom and understanding. I want to be the best for Emery and I want to only show her I'm present in the time we spend together but doing so is something that's exhausting in the most precious and rewarding way possible. We are blessed, so blessed and beyond grateful for our sweetpea. I'd say we're doing good with this new parenting journey- just taking it one day at a time!