Okay, let's get to the good stuff. It's a new year and that means New Year Resolutions. I have to say I am not one for it cause I normally never keep it for long; I think my record was last year with no coffee and I made it til.... February 9th?? Yeah, I am terrible. On a daily basis I think of tons of things I could do differently and want to grow on so as always a big one this year is losing weight.

But then I got to thinking.... I will never be 105 pounds and a size 2 again. I mean I was dancing 20+ hours a week. It was like a job to me and I loved doing it. I need to be realistic here. I need to understand that I have grown into my "womanly figure" as many call it and I need to embrace it.

I hate going to the gym. I'd much prefer having one of my intense migraines cause I just feel down right awkward there. People stare, you sweat and grunt with the hard work and I don't even want Andrew seeing me that way so why would I want tons of stranger seeing that?? I did do the gym last year as often as my mind and body would submit to it but I definitely had a stalker. This guy would always stare and come say "hi" and ask about my weekend. Let me just say, I am one of those people with their iPods in with no intentions of talking to anyone and I don't give any inviting signals either. I am there to get it done and that's that. I started going with my Dad to see if this guy would get the hint and it didn't change; it never halted. So for obvious reasons, I don't enjoy going.

Thankfully, I have come across {ZUMBA} and it has been life changing. It's so much fun and easy to do and you feel great after! I get the work out I need to drop a few pounds and I get to let the old Dancing Diva out for a bit ;)

So here it goes, I am laying it all out there. I started 2011 weighing.... ugh... 160 pounds. GASP! I know, it was horrendous. I look back at pictures and want to punch myself. I gained tons of weight right before Andrew and I wed and kept it on through the first months of 2011. I thank God for blessing me with Andrew cause he was by my side through the whole weight gain and was still telling me I was beautiful and that he wouldn't change a thing. But I can happily say that I am now starting 2012 weighing.... 133 pounds. It may not be much of a difference but being 5 feet tall, those pounds are compacted and adds lots of volumptuous curves I didn't want.

I would be lying if I said I was content with the weight I am now, but I am embracing what I have worked for in the last year. I changed  my eating habits and minimized the coffee and soda. I drink TONS of water... I mean enough to where I pee about every 40 minutes, haha, and it's been paying off. I try to be intentional with Zumba a few times a week and the gym here and there but mainly it's just trying to stay HEALTHY. I don't want to be a skinny-mini the way society has brain washed the world to be, I only want to be health. By being active and eating right, I am.

So I guess all I am saying is that the Resolution I want to make is just sticking to what I changed about my lifestyle last year. Maybe God will keep blessing me and I'll shed a few more pounds. ;)

Happy 2012, my sweet friends.