the icky weight talk & resolutions...blah.

January 6, 2012

Okay, let's get to the good stuff. It's a new year and that means New Year Resolutions. I have to say I am not one for it cause I normally never keep it for long; I think my record was last year with no coffee and I made it til.... February 9th?? Yeah, I am terrible. On a daily basis I think of tons of things I could do differently and want to grow on so as always a big one this year is losing weight.

But then I got to thinking.... I will never be 105 pounds and a size 2 again. I mean I was dancing 20+ hours a week. It was like a job to me and I loved doing it. I need to be realistic here. I need to understand that I have grown into my "womanly figure" as many call it and I need to embrace it.

I hate going to the gym. I'd much prefer having one of my intense migraines cause I just feel down right awkward there. People stare, you sweat and grunt with the hard work and I don't even want Andrew seeing me that way so why would I want tons of stranger seeing that?? I did do the gym last year as often as my mind and body would submit to it but I definitely had a stalker. This guy would always stare and come say "hi" and ask about my weekend. Let me just say, I am one of those people with their iPods in with no intentions of talking to anyone and I don't give any inviting signals either. I am there to get it done and that's that. I started going with my Dad to see if this guy would get the hint and it didn't change; it never halted. So for obvious reasons, I don't enjoy going.

Thankfully, I have come across {ZUMBA} and it has been life changing. It's so much fun and easy to do and you feel great after! I get the work out I need to drop a few pounds and I get to let the old Dancing Diva out for a bit ;)

So here it goes, I am laying it all out there. I started 2011 weighing.... ugh... 160 pounds. GASP! I know, it was horrendous. I look back at pictures and want to punch myself. I gained tons of weight right before Andrew and I wed and kept it on through the first months of 2011. I thank God for blessing me with Andrew cause he was by my side through the whole weight gain and was still telling me I was beautiful and that he wouldn't change a thing. But I can happily say that I am now starting 2012 weighing.... 133 pounds. It may not be much of a difference but being 5 feet tall, those pounds are compacted and adds lots of volumptuous curves I didn't want.

I would be lying if I said I was content with the weight I am now, but I am embracing what I have worked for in the last year. I changed  my eating habits and minimized the coffee and soda. I drink TONS of water... I mean enough to where I pee about every 40 minutes, haha, and it's been paying off. I try to be intentional with Zumba a few times a week and the gym here and there but mainly it's just trying to stay HEALTHY. I don't want to be a skinny-mini the way society has brain washed the world to be, I only want to be health. By being active and eating right, I am.

So I guess all I am saying is that the Resolution I want to make is just sticking to what I changed about my lifestyle last year. Maybe God will keep blessing me and I'll shed a few more pounds. ;)

Happy 2012, my sweet friends.


  1. Congrats on this!! I too put on a lot of weight (a LOT) after getting engaged and when I look back at photos before, I'm shocked at how much I let myself change. It creeps up on you :( I know I need to change my habits and I have the Zumba game for Wii that I plan on doing. Hopefully I can have some of the same success you did. Good luck with everything and you look beautiful!! :)

  2. you've only gotten one comment on this post--I am baffled!!! This was super inspiring and you lost A TON of weight!!! You look great! keep up that clean eating!

    1. Thank you so much! I didn't get big into blogging until late January 2012 so I had maybe 6 followers when that was posted... I doubt a lot of people have seen it.

      Thanks for reading my "story"! :)

  3. Go YOU!!! This is awesome and you deserve a HUGE congrats!! I too, am battling that 150-160 gap where it's just uncomfortable and not "cute" feeling! I was 130 when I got married and here I am 6 months later, trying to get back there! It's hard habits to break but I'm aslo learning to eat BETTER (without giving up my love for food in general) and working on learning to love gym (which is not my everyday friend). It's a process and I'm so glad you have great results to show off. :) Congrats!!! God Bless <3 JD

  4. this is incredible! amazing job!

  5. This IS amazing! You look awesome and should be SO PROUD of yourself!